Cousin

I took everyday for granted thinking there was always tomorrow,

never did I realize tomorrow was so close to being today.

And now I hold my heart in my hands as it’s never felt so heavy,

at times it feels as if I can’t breath, other time it feels as if I don’t want to breath.

I know deep in my heart you knew everyone’s heart went out to you

and you were heard in more prayers than you knew,

I wish you would have known you were in mine.

Thinking of yesterday and the days before that turned into years

today still seems so far away from you being gone.

How I wish I could have seen you once more,

hug you,

laugh with you

and just let you know how much I would miss you,

how many memories keep me laughing.

Now as tomorrow passed today sets in and I didn’t have that chance to tell you,

and through the gravity that holds us in this atmosphere

I hope you can hear my heart cry out to you,

tell you all that I never got the chance to say.

My fondest memories will always be locked in my heart

forever will I remember that waltz around the dance floor on that sunny day in June of 1995 on my Quincenera, you are my cousin and my god father and a friend I always had,

my heart will always be heavy as it pains to cry,

and unlike no other feeling

I will always remember that tomorrow could be so close to today,

I just wish I could have hugged you once more

and laugh with you once more,

I’ve always carried you in my heart and when you love someone they stay in your heart forever and forever you will be..