As a child I prayed for forgiveness
I asked to be saved
I asked for help and to be guided
I prayed for every single person I knew
I prayed after I felt guilty
Before I ate
After I ate
And for my blessings everyday
I didn’t ask for anything
I didn’t want anything
Never prayed for what I wanted
Just what I needed
Maybe for a certain doll during x-mas
Maybe for a mean kid to break their arm
Maybe for a million and one dollars
Maybe for that certain boy to like me
Then I’d pray to forgive me
To pardon my evil way
To destroy that jealous feeling
And to help me fight my demons
After time had passed
I didn’t ask for forgiveness
Didn’t pray for help, guidance or to be saved
Even stopped praying for ever person I knew
With ever page I turned I only had more questions,
With ever word I read I contradicted my own beliefs,
And after I sat in confusion wondering about what else
was out there and why, and why must I be confused. Everything is a religion.
Atheist if more than one person believes to not believe that is their religion
If you care to believe in anything at all non-existent or existent, that is faith.
